My Life in Movies
27 10 2005I’ve been taking these Film Studies classes for almost two years, off and on. I’m just now starting to feel like filmmaking is a future for me. Earlier courses like Special Effects or Film Technology felt like something I was doing with my spare time, in a field I was interested in… sort of like Reg going to a lecture on Feynman. It’s something I like, and want to learn more about, but has little relevance in my daily life or career.
The two courses I’m taking now really change that. The first is Screen Writing I. Only since last night have I really been able to develop my solo project to the point that I know what it’ll be about! There’s still a lot of research and creative work to do, but I really feel as though I have my first ticket into the filmmaking world in a script outline.
Conversely, I’ve encountered my first doubts about filmmaking.
When I started the term, I took Script Writing because I knew it was important to have… not a compulsory course, but one that I should be taking. I was not looking forward to it. The second was Digital Film Production, and I’d been waiting for the course to start for about a year. It kept getting cancelled for lack of registrations. Now that I’m actually in it, I’ve been feeling more and more anxious about the class. In fact, the roles in my mind have reversed… I look forward to my Screen Writing class every week, while I view my Digital Film Production class as a chore.
One stigma against the course is that I had to sink $850 onto my Visa in order to get a DV camera. That was something I wasn’t ready to spend, and really served to remind me how boned I was when I was told that the company I work for wasn’t going to buy a prosumer camera.
Beyond that, the most recent class assignment was to produce a montage by producing two videos, then splice them together. The first one we watched was a confused, deep-underlying-meaning, emotional, complicated, layered, artsie film. At the end, it slaps you in the face with a 9-11 reference. I found it no more appropriate to the content than if they used other shocking imagery like a dead baby, physical abuse, or - if this movie had been made in the 60’s - a mushroom cloud.
I was really quite angry watching this film. It really, really pissed me off. By the end of it, I was fucking furious. Not for any of the content, but that it was such a piece of pretentious bullshit and would be considered “Art” because of such pretentiousness; ignoring the possibility that it is a meandering visual compilation, and says nothing of real significance.
My most disjunctive blog entries have more direction than this crap did.
And so here I am. Thrilled about Screen Writing, and discouraged by Digital Film Production.
More than ever, I want to make films that people want to watch. Not make films that will confuse and, possibly, enrage. Many of the students in this class have taken Film Theory at York, U of T or Carleton. Consequently, they talk about revolutionary filmmakers and films from 1910 through to 1980’s and rattle off names of these people and movies I’ve never heard of; done in casual conversation like you might hear me mention Bruckheimer, Spielberg, Cary Elwes, Mitch Pileggi, The Ring, Back to the Future or Star Wars.
I understand the purpose of these classes, but my list of compulsory courses includes Film Production I, II and III. They are like this current class, but with celluloid and guillotines rather than 0’s and 1’s.
I understand the importance of doing things “The Hard Way” before learning the quickest and most efficient way of doing it. I can look at HTML code and tell if the designer had programmed a page in his or her life, simply by how the WYSIWYG editor of choice compiled the page. I know you have to study what Issac Newton wrote about the physics, before you learn in what ways he was wrong.
Despite all that, the idea of making a movie on celluloid seems somehow… dirty. And unnecessary. I have no intention of shooting on filmstock. But I have not one, not two, but three, two-term classes to take on Pretentious Motion Picture Production (I added the “Pretentious”), when even the teachers will tell you “the certificate isn’t worth the paper it’s written on, it’s the value of what you learn that will get you a job”.
I can learn theory. That I don’t have a problem with. But students with no artistic vision creating confusion in movie-form and saying it has a deeper meaning feels to me like covering dog-doo with a tissue and saying “it has a hidden layer”.
Confusion = Art is what got me out of Art twelve years ago. I landed in Physics (vast difference), and have since drifted back towards an artistic field. Once again, I’m brushed up against those who would be considered better artists than I am, simply because they can communicate “The Point” of what they’re trying to say in a way so incomplete, and full of extraneous information, that most viewers will miss “The Point”.
I’ve ranted enough for now on this topic… but I feel that this is far from over.
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